It Creeps Up On Ya.

Back in January, I was having a few drinks with my work
people celebrating a great xmas season.
I was uncomfortable because that morning
when I woke up I thought I was snuggling
with my boyfriend. You know, spoon, reverse
spoon. etc. But I quickly realized I was
spooning with my belly. Now I've never
really been over weight but today I was.

The weight crept up on me. I mean, I knew
I was gaining weight but it was okay. It was
okay to gain weight, this is a sign of
happiness right? wrong. so terribly wrong.

I realized a few thing about myself at this moment in
my life. I was getting B.O. I never had THAT
problem before. Hello extra strength antiperspirant
and reapply every 4 hours. I was lazy. I wanted to do nothing.
I was feeding my soul not my body... and not very well at that.

My mom is now classified as morbidly obese.
She is 60 years old and this really freaks me out.
There is nothing any one can do to make her lose weight.
It must come from the inside out. You have to be ready to
look after yourself. She is not. I don't think she ever will.
All I can think is, that I'm not ready to lose my mom, and she is
exiting this world a little bit more every day. Everyone around
her is frustrated and doesn't know what to say or do so they
back away. Which of course makes her eat more.

So where am I going with this?
Well, every child must lose their parent at some or another
which is human nature. The reverse is against nature completely.
No parent should lose a child.
My decision to lose weight (I was 239 lbs)
hit me hard. It was May 10 and I had returned from visiting my mom.
Limit those calories. Learn about calories.
Move. Walk. Don't let anyone stop you. It is easier to
do things with a friend or partner, but also sometimes harder,
So I do lots of things myself. I walk, rollerblade and just roam
around trying to keep moving.
As of this morning I am down 37.8 lbs.
I have 6.2 lbs to go and then I am back to ME!
I missed me so much.

Now to try to help my mom.
No child should lose their mom
do to obesity.